my name is emily and i get immense pleasure out of second-hand embarrassment
mostly i am just really embarrassed and ashamed because i was so adamant that my college stuff would get done and my parents didn’t have to worry and it was all going to be up to me. and even though i still have a couple months to actually get it in that i couldn’t do it in time for the initial dates is really embarrassingly indicative that i am way less functional than i believe myself to be. and mom and dad are going to take this as a very bad sign.
i had a really long talk with both my dad and my therapist and my dad/therapist at the same time about missing deadlines but a few of my college apps were due today and they’re not even started a ha
looking for pg-13 movies with a mixed race cast for a school sleepover (don’t ask). only now am i realizing how screwy equal representation is in hollywood????? if there IS a black girl she’s never the protagonist. i even consulted some imdb “girly sleepover!!” lists and lemme say people have terrible taste, how to lose a guy in 10 days is universally named and that movie SUCKED.
but the thing is if i did it all over again i would still choose to go to this particular emotional vacuum bc showering is 100% optional
i have been in my school three times this week and i swear to god i am already writing notes for my therapist to up my dosage. even walking down the hallway is SOUL AGONY.
i would make such a great witch